Je t'adore

Yours Sincerely

2010-01-25T21:49:00.008+08:00

Dear baby, i know the time we spent together are always so short, all because i am in NS and ur always there waiting for my return. sometimes while in camp i still throw tantrum at u, know why? its because i really miss u. i really dread returning to camp on sundays because i have to part wif u again. baby dun ignore me, i jus need ur tender love and care as much as u can offer. It maybe greedy but i am sure u wan all that i can offer too. Valentine's Day is coming and i hope i can make all the VDays in the oncoming years very special to u.

Lastly and always i love u Mag Baby!
Your the best girlfriend ever!

do u trust me?
everything is gonna be alright...

______________________________________________________________

Reply,

Baby, everyday will be valentine day if we are happy tgt.

&why would this few days or weeks or months ever matter ,when we have th entire lifetime tgt :)

I know how you feel in camp, &sometimes i feel sad and helpless.

But, Tough times dont last ,Tough man does rmb?:)

&i know Kenby is a tough guy yeah?

Love you, Forever and Always!

*PINCH KENBY FAT CHEEKS!

ps: with my life baby.

2010-01-21T12:25:00.001+08:00

okay,you can like ignore the post i has just publish becuz im just tryna push th song down so i can put new songs.yay!

haha.

bye!

with load of Love

2010-01-04T02:59:00.004+08:00

hi baby , i know you will be reading this.

you know how every time you come into my blog and post a draft post is always about how you carn seems to do what you promised me to?
it seems that i can't too. :(

i wanted to give you what i tot was th best i could give to my boyfriend on his birthday.
but i didnt put my plans into action.
Although in th end after you found out what i had installed for you today ,you were happy and rather touched that i have actually made th effort to come up with something. i know nothings gna beat getting the real thing.

i really didnt want to write this post.
As in, i wish my birthday post for you was a happier one.

well, still too early to tell i guess, it 4 in th morning now. still got loads of time till 5th of jan.
hope you will never read this!

love ya!

hello,hello, anybdy ther?

2010-01-04T02:33:00.004+08:00

So like after a month or so, i finally get freed up from work.
& that fucking means no full shift on mon and morning shift on tuesday full shift on wed night shift on weekends!
Lol. i know right but its like, OMFG HAPPINESS BEYOND MANZ!

but now that i ve got no work ,i kinda lost track of dates and times and whens when.
not that it means much since im practically idling till school reopen.
it just kinda susks when you are idling AND your penniless.
Lol.its like you work your ass off all day and at the end when you finally get to rest or take a break you carn seems to figure out where all the money you work for go to.

besides th fact that i dont earn much despite working so much-which is depressing , i also FUCKING DONT SPEND MUCH lorh-.-

i always end up not buying anything becuz everything seems so expensive.
& thats not a good thing ,cuz all th money ends up in my body anyway -which is major depressing.

&whats more depressing is today is K's birthday & i didnt even do a single thing for him :(. sigh, i wish i did save some money for today.

okay, enough of my stupid insignificant rants.

im gna chill , put on my aloe vera facial mask & sleepy time!

gdnight!

I♡U

2009-12-27T13:25:00.004+08:00

A huge ass picture of cutesy K.
*pinches baby's cheek.

p/s : next time don't type a post for me and don't publish it. ♡♡

baby!!!

2009-12-25T22:04:00.003+08:00

hello baby, surprised to see this? haha.

sorry i didnt let u have a wonderful christmas, or even a delightful birthday. hmm, althou we dun spend much time cause u are working but i believe our love is still intact and constantly increasing. u are the best baby!!! i just simply love u!!

with ♥

2009-12-16T01:23:00.003+08:00

the time i spent in Tp might have been short, and i have only a few friends.
&the fondest memories are those of our friendship.

thank you,for being my friend.
for letting me in your life and being your friend.
we hadnt really got a chance to speak ever since the start of holiday and now that ive dropped school we hardly get to talk anymore.
but,meet up soon yeah? :)

&i wish you all da best, be it with E, Dip or family, camps whatever.
being in camp is probably not th best way to spend your birthday, but make th most out of it yeah.:)

Happiest 18th birthday.

xoxo,♥

rants

2009-12-10T16:16:00.003+08:00

you know how it feels like when you wake up every morning and you feel like, this is so sick.
and every night before you sleep you think this is so unfair.
& th more you think about it the more upset you get.

so,i planned my schedule thinking im gna spend some quality time this month with K.
&guess what, he have to sleep in fusion waiting for me to end work at 2/3am when he have to wake up at 5am to book in.
and my only fucking off day is Thursday and Sunday.
my original schedule was Monday full,Tuesday and Wednesday morning, Friday night and the rest off.
now Monday AND Wed full ,Tuesday morning. Friday AND Saturday NIGHT.

just becus some fucking people say th shedule given wasnt what they wanted i ve to be th one giving in. I DIDNT FUCKING ASK FOR IT.
neither was i given a choice to say no.
yeah i know, im just a part time worker who should have no say.
but i just dont fucking uds why others can get what they asked for and i dont have a fucking choice.

this is only th fucking first weekday, i carn imagine th weekend. neither can i bear th thought of th rest of th month.

sometimes i really feel like just forfeiting one whole month of pay and just dont turn up at all.
it really doesnt pay to be nice ,when everyone else only have their fucking own interest at heart.

Stop Crying Your Hearts Out

2009-12-04T17:23:00.002+08:00

okay, i think ♡'s love for emo songs is getting on me.
now the only few songs that im listening to are all from his playlist.
anyway, love this song by oasis. Leona Lewis new album has a different version but hers arnt as good. seriously.

bye!

I will be there until your heart stops beating

2009-12-01T00:53:00.003+08:00

so on friday, K suprised me with....

needless to say i was mad happy and excited.i have been waiting for it since the first movie came up.
im so gna re read all the books. and as im typing im trying damn hard not to start with "OMGTLISH " -oh my god taylor lautner is so hawt! like one stupid girl.
&Both me and K agree that Ashley greene is th prettiest among all cast.i just wish i had her nose.haha.
i like th movie thou its so draggy maybe because i was too busy staring at ashley greene.hehe.shes really pretty!!

oh ,before th movie ,after my work k and i walked to th boutique opposite fusion.we were waiting for people to get out from changing room so we started trying on wigs. K looks pretty doesn he? :P
the rest of the photos were because we were just so bored at work we went crazy. haha.

anyway, i have a new schedule on this month. :)

goodnights.

2009-11-25T00:32:00.002+08:00

so,i have left blcktrswhtelies to collect dust for sometime now.
i have not been busy just don't really have much to blog about.

&i bet the only few people that will still care if im alive or not is probably only k and burdens.
&th only reason why im updating this blog is because k thinks its another way of getting to know what im thinking.

so i guess i haven been thinking much at all.anyway, just for people who do bother to read.
im gna study in MDIS in January, and if nothing goes wrong i should be able to graduate with a diploma by July.
so from now till jan besides meeting k during weekends and burdens on some weekdays i practically sits around fusion to pass time.
work is so boring,i can actually list out the tv show i watch from 12 to 4 on every week day.

okay,i better go sleep if i dont want to be late tmr.

ps: i really hate army. it stole my only friend away. :(

rants

2009-11-15T02:14:00.003+08:00

this must be the worst weekend ever.
2:14am in the morning and im sitting ,typing this,tearing.

i really wonder if there really is any difference in my studying and now working full time.
still lonely and have no one to talk to in an entire day.well, at least back then i still had a boyfriend, that no matter how bad my mood is comes to me and calms me down.

carn believe its th same guy actually brushes me off by saying he is not-in-the-right-mood today.

this isnt the first weekend that he is stuck in camp,and here im trying to cheer him up,and there he was flaring up. not angry? just not in th right mood. just what did i do, to deserve this.

i really dont wna think bout wat you might be thinking of.
you knew i hate this.
hate how you ignore me.how you always brush off question or quarrels.
&i was telling you, idk why people are ignoring me, and of all times you choose to turn your back on me.

Eightn!

2009-10-29T22:35:00.003+08:00

Actually i just wanna thank bf, burdens and angelyn for making it a point to celebrate my birthday :)

especially burdens :), namely SHERLYNA POH and MABELYNN NEO for treating me Sakura, swear i'll never forget the suparrr long birthday song played in sakura ,the present and the cake . Loves much! thank you Maxim for coming down last min too!

thank you angelyn for lunch treat at Jack's place. sorry K and i didnt accompany you to FEP, meet up soon kay! :)

&of course thanks baby, for everything! *HEARTS

oh, & of course to the all the wishes! on FB,messages , and blog dedication from J.

kay, thats all. haa. byee!! :)

tumblr!

2009-10-28T14:39:00.003+08:00

You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again.

She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can.

She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give.

Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.

-Bob Marley

tired

2009-10-26T22:45:00.001+08:00

im really tired now.
have to work full shift tomorrow.
so i'll blog on my birthday on wednesday :)

goodnight!

sick

2009-10-21T13:00:00.001+08:00

sigh, its 4 day before my birthday. &im sick.
i carn really explain cuz its kinda embarrassing.

but its causing damn alot of pain.baby, had nights out last night.he came down specially for me.
but yet somehow the pain got so bad i kept crying.

and i didnt stop till i close anyway.
thankfully after abit of sleep it got better.

going to see the doctor now.

bye:(

weekends! :>

2009-10-16T13:30:00.000+08:00

hi, im damn excited now.cuz baby is coming out in 2 hours!
after 2 weekends of rotting at home we are finally going to go shopping tmr!

sadly i ve to work tonight :(
&from next month onwards i'll be working full time in fusion.
:( cuz im school-less!

i feel so fat now.random.

kay,bai!

Two is better than one

2009-10-12T23:23:00.000+08:00

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you thought that it got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

Any day is a special day

2009-10-07T04:30:00.000+08:00

we probably started on the wrong foot.
we probably made the most horrible decision.

But it was a night to remember.
it was A's birthday,we were at town , planning to head to the club.
he saw salesperson giving out flowers, he grab one &gave it to A .
it was only much later till he told me, "the flower was actually for you ,but it was her birthday".

we went to phuture that night.
i wasnt thinking much just drinking.
i had massive mouth diarrhea & was barely able to control it.
&....

i vomited.. on about half of his body :/
the rest of the night was spent on his lap.
i swear i dont remember who initiated the kiss, cuz i was gone.
but since he said i did, anything that makes him happy then :)

...

it wasnt at all simple then.
you probably had seen me going on hiatus for a while.

but only one night ,was worth to mention.

that night.he finally ask to b given a chance.
not to be forgiven ,but to prove how much he can love me...
to lead my life thru whatever it takes.

no fancy dinner ,no movies, no proposal.
just a simply special night.

because im with the special you :)
happy 5th monthsary baby ,mwah.

RIP

2009-09-30T04:29:00.000+08:00

Must dying be one of the way another be reminded of?
its kinda sad dont you think. its always only when one die till people suddenly remember how great he was and all.
its so hypocritical.
of course i donte mean those who are really close to the one who pass away and is crying their hearts out because someone who meant something to them is dead,
i meant those who probably never really spoken to him and if it wasnt because of the news and everything they wouldnt even had given a shit if he was dead or alive moreover still write tributes to him.

oh well, i just find it sad that why must the way he died be how some of us will remember him for.

he was a classmate of my brother , someone who i probably never spoken more than 3 lines with.

still.. RIP,vincent.

ps:those bustard ah tiongs should burn in hell! >:(

i hope its not too late.

2009-09-28T00:09:00.000+08:00

Friendship is an amazing thing.
few days before you could have completely no contacts with an old friend.
but today you find yourself chatting with her till the skies turn grey.

we have known each other for years & your probably one out of the few friends i can really talk to.
i ve never been a people person, i donte take initiative to make friends at all.

but i know im sucha big pang sei-er.
&i still dont see myself balancing my relationships well. &i swear,it isnt because K has already cleared his block leave &now im so free at home &thus im typing this hoping you guys will call me soon.
im not that type of person that carn live by a day with boredom.
so yeah, i really just wanna apologize if you think ive really given up you guys for my boyfriend,sincerly.

to burdens, sorry! ^^
to ma ole friend J , last friday was nice. just like old times:)

you.

2009-09-23T19:49:00.000+08:00

the past 12 days or so have been the best days ever since 3 months ago.
shopping ,window shopping,non stop eating, spending th night over at your crib, accompanying me at work.

i remembered one morning you went early to work for your father.and you were on your way home.
you called me to wait for you under th bridge behind my block. few moments later you appeared presenting a bouquet of pink daisy. :)

i remembered one working night you ask me if i want you to come down for you,i said of course i want.but i know you were not feeling well and you said you had no mood to too.you probably had already heard the disappointment from the tone of my reply.
a few moments later you appear right in front of me.not becuz you knew i were dissappointed but becuz you have already planned to upset me before surprising me.

about a few weeks or so later, you use the same trink on it,&i still fell for it all the same.
i even feel guilty for getting angry at you.

sometimes i really hate myself.

but i still love you like i always do.

To pretty boy

2009-09-17T22:55:00.000+08:00

dont need to be upset because you carn fulfill your promise to bring me to the flyer or to a gold class movie.
you might have forgotten but you had once promised to treat me like never before.
so much things you ve done for me,i dont even know where to start.
thank you,for treating me like never before.

i love you so much.

:(

2009-09-12T15:57:00.000+08:00

reuslts were out on thursday.
&i failed almost all the modules. with only 2 Pass.&it also means i failed netfund.
well,i still have a chance which is the supplementry paper.but i seriously am not hopeful at all.
so if i still fail the sup for netfund, i'll be kicked out of school!!!

im not upset thou.just wouldnt know how to break the news to my parents that i have actually been faling throughout this 1.5 years.

ohwell, gotta go ;)

2009-09-06T22:57:00.000+08:00

the weekend at work had been the best.
not becuz there wasnt any problematic cust or i closed uber early.
but becuz baby actually gave up his sleeping time all for me :)

from serving cust to closing ,he was there for me from 1am till 5. ♥ ♥

saturday was also our 4th monthsary, we spent the afternoon before i went for work in town.
&we caught G-force!! super super cute!!! much better than i love you beth cooper which we caught on friday night. haha.we actually watched movies for two days in a row.

alrights, im gonna get back to the show before going to bed.

nights ♥

2009-09-03T12:13:00.000+08:00

so bored!
im was downloading and watching fated to love halfway until firefox crash -at.the.climax.
wtf to da max.
now i have to reload it from the start .zzz

//EDITED

this sucks kay.i ve been up since 9am, and i didnt manage to complete an episode of fated to love! ): now its 3 pm &ive got nothing to do!!! im meeting sher &rest at 7 which is like 4 more hours!!!!

i donte want to go jogging because from where im sitting i can feel my skin burning. lol.
thou i promise baby to go jog every single day .aww.

IM DAMN BORED!
im sick of pet society,im sick of every game.
i played country story, glamour age, bejeweled bliz, aiya, there's nothing for me to do left. ):

so bored!

bye!

missing pretty boy

2009-09-01T00:17:00.000+08:00

2009-08-27T19:13:00.000+08:00

in like less than two hours time im going to meet baby!
<3<3<3

yay!

hehehe

2009-08-24T14:19:00.000+08:00

i didnt know that petsociety pets can actually shit.
haha.i just cleared moriji's first ever bowels.

anyway, even thou i might not have done like what ive desired and least required for my paper.
i still feel happy i got it over and done with . i just really pray i see a P on my result

the past one week have been hell.
waking up in 5 +am and studying till midnight.
and during work on saturday, i shouted at a customer.
it was totally unintentional, i was so busy and he was just there yanking at me asking me to get his drink.i never meant to shout but it just came out,like naturally.
i was never happy with that group of cust anyway,fact is nobody is ,really.

and actually ive been considering on quitting alot lately.
im starting to really think that if that few hundreds dollars per month is really worth wasting my weekends away.
i really feel so unhappy working there,its like i dont see why i have to put up with random people bad attitude just so i wont get into any trouble.
its not like im getting paid thousands of months right, plus at the end of a super busy night i end up topping up the shortage with my pay.

im gonna continue with ma pet society now.

2009-08-21T22:29:00.000+08:00

next week's examination.
been sleeping very very less .
i have to get that 75/100 for netfund! thou i have probably never scored anything close to that.
im still hopeful cuz i think i really am trying to work for it.

in case your wondering why this layout, apparently i tried to edit my template in IE and it screwed up in firefox.
will try to do something new after my exams.

anyway,today's friday but baby's only booking out on sunday.
long week eh b. :(

just three more days till holidays! :)
shall get back to ole-bb naww!

goodnight!

2009-08-13T10:39:00.000+08:00

okay,thurday today.
im still getting one hundred and one errors which i carn solve.
:(

2009-08-11T10:45:00.001+08:00

one last fucking week!
today is tuesday already.& thursday is the deadline for OOP.
im so dead,i swear.

i just carn wait for this week to end.!!!!!!!!!

got to go back to proj. goodbye!

Happiness is always so small when you hold it in your hands.
let it go and you will see ,how big and precious it is.

take care of yourself in field camp prettyboy.
i'll miss you
*muaw

2009-08-06T12:45:00.000+08:00

im hooked onto pet society.hahaha!
thanks to my classmates from EBapp.
i finally went back to playing after abandoning my pet for so long :P

im so boredddddd.zzzzzzz

2009-08-05T08:50:00.001+08:00

im so bored. just one last week to finish up oop. &i have only 2 papers! :)hehehe
Happy 3rd monthsary baby :)

//EDITED

im damn pissed. i carn use jcreator on my desktop ,and i carn download the whatever shit that it asked me to cuz im not the administrator. -.- the laptop is spoilt supposedly by me.
yeah, sure. the spoiler of everything eh.
i donte uds why my family people have the tendency to point fingers at people rather than getting it fixed. &what, just becuz im using it when it go haywire meant that i spoilt it.
how conveniently pushing the blame all on me.

bye

cuz when all else fails,i dont.

2009-07-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

okay,Blogger is screwed.
i need to do my OOP draft now, tomorrow deadline!

Friday is just another day away:):)

ps- i miss you .

2009-07-28T19:27:00.001+08:00

i really donte have anything to blog about.
im just really really really scared im gonna get kicked out of school.lol
K never fail to reassure me the school wont anyhow fail students cuz they have to write reports.
i just donte see any excuses for me to pass this sem laaaa ):

i skipped IA today, cuz ive decided to retake that as well. i know right, so much for wanting to do even better than last sem.
ohwell, im just really really looking forward to september, before that i shall just look forward to every weekend. ^^

i haven heard from baby for 3 days already!
:'( just 3 more days till fri!!!!

goodbye

2009-07-22T00:12:00.000+08:00

it is me or the people around me?

i wish i can just f it and just go to sleep right at this moment.
but fucking tmr is the fucking deadline.
i so wanted to tell em,how do you expect me to complete something in 1/2 day which you guys took weeks to do.
&it isnt my fault i didnt do it earlier, im suppose to do the end part.
if they had been so anxious they could have done it earlier and pass it to me earlier.

my mind is so fucking blank and im sweating like crazy which is making me fucking piss.

args.

2009-07-19T22:29:00.000+08:00

okay, its past 10, psycho mates have not sent me their work. i somehow guess they will not anyway. ohwell, shouldnt blame it on them either uh. people can never seems to trust me to get the work done.
& guess what, im down with fever! am starting to cough a little, partly because my throat have been a real pain in the ass.

i ve tried panadol, & apparently the fever comes back every time the dosage worns off.
am planning to see a doctor if i donte get any better.

so on thursday, baby booked out, because he went to get lozenges for sore thoart & the doctor gave him a 4days MC instead. but i had to meet sher, mab,pohli& yvonne for harry potter and the half blood prince. the show was anti climax. Even the fanatic mabelynn was disappointed.
& after the movie, i cabbed down to G's place since baby was spending his night there. The next day, we went back home, &i went for work.

sat was spent out with baby&his friends. we caught Obsessed.At first i thought there was really gonna be a extramarital affair,turns out it was only about a women obsessed with a married and successful man. haha.

went home and in the morning baby accompany me to work & went off for book in.

im gonna turn in now as promise to baby.

goodnight!

2009-07-16T00:57:00.000+08:00

okay, i have been playing bejeweled since 10 30, now its 1am.

so much for staying up late to study for tmr's maths test.

bejeweled is a total addictive game. &guess what, for the first time in th many many weeks/months, i rank 3rd ! haha. donte laugh at me pls. the rank will probably drop by tmr anyway.
after non stop playing for 2.5hrs my lids weight a ton, &so,im gonna hit the sack!

harry potter movie tomorrow, baby book out the day after :)

hehe.
byeeee!

2009-07-15T01:44:00.000+08:00

so we met up to book tickets for harry potter on Thursday.
&we ended up talking about, how come fb's relationship status so boring one.
:/
haha.&so we tried ways to get each other engaged ,in a relationship ,married to each other.
apparently it didnt work.haha.
so we post on our walls,

haha.like living in our own world with only four girls still so scandalous.

ohwell, at least it got us excited for quite a while :)

byes!

2009-07-14T19:55:00.000+08:00

absofuckinglutely boring day.

idk why, kfc this afternoon made me feel so nauseous. its been like hours alrd!
anyway, i wasnt late for school.didnt sleep much,after watching incredible tales on channel 8.
i went for IA for three fucking hours basically doing nothing but surfing the net. &then lunch with love(J) . OOP for two hours, lecture gave us our projects.

anyhow, meeting burdens later for dinner. yay!

4more weeks till main exams, haha!
1 more month till holiday!

endure!

ps.i miss baby, absofuckinglutely much.

2009-07-13T22:25:00.000+08:00

idk why, everything kinda just sucks right now.

i have so much stuff to study ,i donte even know which to prioritize now.
&i have been skipping school till i donte even dare to check my attendance.
Almost all my subject's attendance falls below 85% &that means i will only get a P grade,fyi.

before baby enlist i promise myself, i will start studying and start waking up early for jogs.
& today is like the 4th week since he first book in. &i did none.

i guess part of my bad mood today was because i was late for netfund.
the only subject i failed last semester. &its the only subject im praying to pass this sem.

sigh,ohwell.

2009-07-08T21:42:00.000+08:00

Baby im your biggest fan ,I'll follow you until you love me.♥

five whole days spent entirely with baby is da love.
spent 2nd monthsary at his place watching Hitch, over jumbo Yami yogurt. :):)
on sunday morning baby suprised me with the bouquet of roses! ♥♥

caught Ice Age3 on monday after school. absofuckinglutely cute show.love it!

tuesday was spent bumming around his place, watching two shows in da row. missing school & sending him off to camp.

back to school today. no psychology today, but had to stay back at lab to do business application. crap to da max i swear. i nearly had to stayed till 10pm but anyhow i still went off. but i have to do it tomorrow.zzz. i have yet to complete the assignment too! >:(

Alrights, need to go studyy!!

byesss

2009-06-27T22:42:00.000+08:00

past few days have been alright.

baby booked out on Tuesday night, because of aftermath of tooth extraction.
poor baby was so sick ,he took another day off &only book in on Thursday.

at the polyclinic waiting for our turn. baby looks pale eh. ): i went to get mcee for my day off school as well. haa.

& friday,

i worked from 8pm to this morning 10am! its actually quite alright,just a lil boring.
i bought yami yougurt before i went off to work.hehehe. ♥♥♥

im gonna sleep now.

goodnights!♥

2009-06-22T22:38:00.000+08:00

My L.O.V.E

2009-06-21T23:02:00.000+08:00

I never thought I'd find another love like this
I'll never forget the first time we kissed
Your body against mine
The touch of your skin, your lips
Such a beautiful kiss

2009-06-21T01:05:00.000+08:00

okay, i know, only people with no life is at home on a saturday night.apparently 32 of my fellow friends (online) have no life.
haa

anyway,im eating yami yogurt now.i bought it few days back thinking i can start my diet proper. but it never did work anyway.haa. i just ate it as my after lunch/dinner dessert.
heheh.its honeydew baby, your fav :) my grandma tot i was strange cuz i never liked honeydew. see how much you influence me b? :P

anyway,i caught Ghost of my girlfriend's past.maybe i love it becuz its so cliche filled. like its always the same old thing they try to get across which people find too ..well.. chiche to be significant anymore. haa.

lastly 7 more days baby, i know you told me not to countdown.
but i can practically see time ticking in micro seconds! ):

work tomorrow, school the next.
omg.

2009-06-18T02:43:00.000+08:00

baby promise me to bring me to school when he book out.
no breaking of promise now b, its all posted here!

hehehehe!

i love you baby!!!& i miss you sooooo much! <3<3<3

im back from amber 21 with mab and some sec school friends.
i donte know how am i gonna wake up on time for tomorrow's meeting.
omg, carn believe i agreed to do conclusion for psychology's project! ):

arights, gna crash.

byes.

2009-06-17T16:43:00.000+08:00

met up with sher,mab and pohli yesterday night.
we tried to play advance mode for l4d, & we totally suck in it.

our forte - incapacitating each other.

sher: eh! how come i suddenly incapacitated!
me: hahahahahahaha! cuz i shot you :P

we couldnt even complete one map, but were rushing off for the movie The takings of the phelam 123.

homed after that.

today is only the third day since baby went off to army.
11 more days!

school's reopening next week.

sigh,i miss k, very very much. :(

just saw this in facebook. G's birthday, this is the only nice pic i saw of myself :P

Mag Baby

2009-06-15T10:25:00.000+08:00

When u see this entry i already gone.

Dun be sad baby, ure not alone.

As u know i will be with u always.

No matter what.

I Love You M.

XOXO

2009-06-11T22:58:00.000+08:00

home for the entire day,watched 5 eps of GossipGirls .
i think today is the first day k & i didnt meet for one whole day since like 2 months ago.
im not exaggerating at all.

i wish he hasnt been so sweet to me all these time suddenly, picking me from school,sending me to school, waiting for me at work till dawn, meeting every day. now his leaving for army i had forgotten how its like all alone again. :*(

ohwell, today has been a good one day alone. i donte know how many dramas i have to burn to past time but i guess i will get by.

btw check this out,

-rolleyes. lol

A month ago,two became one.

2009-06-05T00:13:00.001+08:00

Happy first month baby.♥

2009-06-04T12:02:00.000+08:00

omfg,

megan fox is a man! baby must be damn sad.

LOS ANGELES, CA – The internet has been abuzz since this Sunday’s Golden Globes ceremony, where Megan Fox jokingly remarked that she looked like a man.

When interviewed on the red carpet, she said “I look like Alan Alda in drag. I’m a tranny. I’m a man.”

At the time, reporters passed it off as a jovial attempt to cover for her nerves.

However, today she has cleared the air and officially reported: she’s really a man.

Megan Fox was born Mitchell Reed Fox in Rockwood, Tennessee. From an early age, Mitchell showed an interest in both performing and women’s clothing. When having a preacher lay hands on him did not ‘cure’ him of these interests, his parents simply put him on the pageant circuit.

By the age of 13, Mitchell had already started a career as a female child performer called ‘Megan Fox’. Making her debut on an Olsen Twins straight-to-video release, the twins have kept his secret all this time.

As a sweet 16 present, Fox’s parents offered him sexual reassignment surgery, which, given their child’s career, they’d hoped to write off as a business expense. Unfortunately laws prohibit such surgery to be done to minors.

Since then Megan has been working non-stop, and been included on many Hottest Women lists in publications around the world.

Megan, as she goes by now exclusively, also noted this Sunday how much she wants Salma Hayek’s figure. She has even scheduled surgery later this month to get it. After the two met in New York this week, Hayek offered to have a cast made of her bust so doctors can match them exactly on Megan Fox’s chest.

The internet is already speculating whether this news will be worked into the plot of the upcoming Transformers sequel.

___________________________________________________________________

anyway,im back from my first paper, &im gonna study for oop now.

byes!

2009-06-04T01:14:00.000+08:00

To my dearest best girlfriend,

babe, im so sorry i ve not been a good friend lately.
i know, tough time you are having, but i promise you, things is not going to stay bad.
remember how you walked thru your last break up?
you know you can do it ,yes babe?

i carn promise you that im just a phone call away, but i will still be here.
just tell me, if you need me badly.
i wouldnt leave my gf in lurch.
i swear, this holiday, i will make myself free.

just a quote i learnt just now,

its okay to lose someone who once love you, becuz for him he lost someone who still love him.
its his loss babe.
his undeserving of your love for him.

xo, M

critically ashamed.

2009-06-01T20:34:00.000+08:00

hellos world. its been a long time since i had pictures:)
desktop is finally fixed, but brother banned me from downloading stuff.haha
he believes thats the cause of the breakdown -.-

anyways, emaths was alright, just hoping to pass.

____________________________________________________________
♥

to my dearest baby,
i just wanna tell you that no need to be upset or whatever with what i told you this afternoon. cuz alot of times i haven gotten the same shit from her.
i believe that things will get better in time.
have faith yes baby?
i also believe that if i carn accept you at your worst ,i donte deserve you at your best.

i love you baby, always have always will.

loadsOfLove, M♥

love will tear us apart

2009-06-01T09:04:00.000+08:00

so freaking sleepy. its only 9:32am. ve got a paper at 3, i should just go sleep.if i donte have like 2 more chapter to go. fuck. so much for the burning midnight oil. i actually went to sleep at 3am. args.

oh wells,its just term test. wouldnt be so tough. right?

A facade of all facades, a mask behind masks.

2009-05-28T00:25:00.000+08:00

rights, school was alright. baby told me today, news reports first case of h1n1 .not that im am any more concern about it than the flabby arms vibrating as i type in this space.
omfg, i feel fat, i rather get swine flu !

must stop mass eating food baby. i donte care if you love me any lesser if im skinner. :(
i want to diet! oh no,donte love me any lesser, hehe. i know you love me all the same.

2009-05-26T01:13:00.000+08:00

i have got nothing to do now. massive headache.
i should i known better not to oversleep and miss school.
i just checked ,and my netfund attendance is alrd 85% not counting today.
& it just means, high chance of failing ,again :c

so dead. must remind myself to check mail everyday, look out for mass spam warning letters .

ps: baby, donte blame yourself on my attendance,thou you never did. :p

xo,
m

2009-05-16T11:31:00.000+08:00

yesterday work was like hell.
i worked from 12pm to 5am. & i swear custs got really irritated by me.

i was really feeling so bad i was literally shivering ,whole body aching & head hurting lie crazy.
thankfully the panadol wonders kicked in fast enuff &i felt somehow normal.

baby came at 5am & we cabbed back.
he actually gave me menstrual panadol -.- haa. at least the headache went off after awhile &i felt better in the morning. thanks baby, lovelove!

im feeling cold again,& after an arguement with grandma the headache is back.
:(

ohwell, just hope i get better in the night.

fuckloads of ♥,
M

2009-05-14T01:50:00.000+08:00

it wasnt a typical wednesday.
:)
i had lunch with love,and she told me about her love life.

"hey love, choose what you really think is right and choose what you really want and be happy,im always here for you k ? [:"
sounds familiar? no matter what's your decision, i carn interfere, but when you need someone to talk to, i think im quite a good listener. :)
i heard your past, & i know you hate him for everything he has done.
but,what doesnt kill you made you stronger.
one imfamous phrase from me, wounds heal, if you let it and not poke it to see if its still there.
i believe whatever that's gonna happen to you,nothing is gonna be as bad as the past.

i think today was one hell of a killing brain cells day,
both love got me thinking so much. :P
Dear Mr yeo, i ♥ you. for your unconditional love and care for me.
im sorry you lost trust on me.
but you know it,for you i wouldnt mind letting the whole world of guys down.
_______________________________________________________________

okay, back to normal life.
im hook on restuarant city. &im damn pissed with the hack.
carn seems to get it right. im so jealous of people with nice restuarant :(

need to sleep.hee.

nights world.

2009-05-13T01:01:00.000+08:00

its a fucking Wednesday morning. :(
hate Wednesday, im going to have my first ever psychology class later.
crap, i donte know how to explain my three consecutive absence since the first lesson.
oops.

feeling fat these day.
haa. have been eating too much, its true that people who are in love tends to grow fat right.
ohwell, should start jogging very soon when feeling fats overwhelm feeling lazy. haa.

&i hate database lecture. tell on me today, called my home and told grandma that i skipped lessons.
i think im gonna fail that anyway, haa. so much for wanting to pass all subject this sem.

shall go sleep now.

nights world <3

any day is a special day

2009-05-11T00:35:00.000+08:00

2009-05-10T10:09:00.000+08:00

staying any min more in here is just gonna drive me to insanity.

i can never never convince her with anything i said.
the most infuriating part is shes never wrong ,yet she still wants to ask.
crazy shit.

i can never understand how she trust my bro so much,take in every word he says.

just becuz there used to be a misunderstanding towards K ,she thinks his the bad guy.
just becuz i dropped my ezlink card at parklane ,she blames it on K for bringing me to play lan.
just becuz i stay out till late cuz there is nothing for me to do at home,she blames it on K.
i donte know how more ridiculous this can get

sigh, i'll never see the end of this.

My love for a condemned.

2009-05-07T22:45:00.000+08:00

I went through hell having a battle between good and evil.i was lost but an angel,one whom did not mind me being condemned. she rescued me and here she is. My socially awkward tiger.Even thou an angel.she still needs th utmost care and love.i donte mind giving my all.but she must prove worthy. :)i love you baby!
-k

baby,the past one week or two was like hell to me too. i shouldnt be comparing, but th feeling of losing you was terrible. it felt like the one who was directing my life had dumped me on a crossroad,on his crossroad. ironically, we went back to where we first started. it was terrible having to see you struggle. All i could do was to stand by you &i never did see myself as an angel who rescued you. i was th devil who wanted this love to be so perfect that i forced you ,pushing you to your limits for an answer. until you finally decided that this socially awkward tiger makes her own decision. you probably didnt know that you were the only who urged me to hold on. in my mind i was weak,desperate to get out of the circle, but i knew i had to be stronger for this once in my life.
& finally i got you.

if there is an expiry date for your love for me ,make it forever.
beccuz baby, from the moment you said you love me.
i'be loving you long time.

♥m

2009-05-03T09:14:00.000+08:00

i donte wish to go for a hiatus forever.
i know sometime somehow, i have to come out and face it.

i had wish that i could press the fast forward button till may 29th.
they say be careful what you wish for,cuz you just might get it.
i got what i wanted ,an answer.

i probably never really knew what i wanted, all i ever want was a cue,a cue to leave or to stay.
i carn deny and pretend that im happy with the decision he ve made.
but i couldnt say anything becuz i no longer wish to turn th tables anymore.
i donte know why by th 3rd time he still chose to walk away i couldnt cry anymore.
probably becuz i was already sick ,sick & tired of th end.
it really upsets me to know that was probably the last ever im gona hear from him again.
but i realise that would be th least i need to do,to stand by his decision and never look back again.

words can never really tell th story.
theres just too little love& too many complication
too little happiness, too much scars

friends, do me a favour by never asking about it again.
i just want to walk thru this on my own.

best

2009-05-01T15:18:00.000+08:00

I, I don't know why I miss you so much

Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch

You, you left me feeling high and dry

With nothing, nothing but the question why

Yeah you, I guess you had another direction

And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

If you call me todayI'll say that I'm fine

But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice

It's just a lie

You knew what you had

You still walked away leaving me in this mess

My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me

And I, I guess I was too blind to see

Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad

But I'd do it again to relive what we had

Damn that's sad

There are many things left to remind me

Of a love that I just can't leave behind me

2009-04-30T22:08:00.000+08:00

HIATUS ♥

2009-04-29T00:59:00.000+08:00

we are good already.
yeah,you can roll your eyes again.

sorry to have made you guys worried.

but im kinda glad it took place.
at least i know him a bit more, & i saw how friends cared.
&i feel guilty for only meeting him these past few weeks.

Honestly i still feel unsure, &scared.
but i thpught, since it was already a mistake we both made, we might as well make th best out of it? :)
never mind if youre confuse or doesnt know wth im talking about.
haa.

im gonna sleep now.
gdnights:D

2009-04-28T07:36:00.000+08:00

im so lost. part of me just wana hold you back and ask for a chance to start anew.
but another just wana let you go.

just few days back you said you love me.
you built me up and teared me down the very next moment.
why?

i never wantd something so much before.
i tried to hold on to it, but it still slipped away,
honeymoon period is not even over,but happiness was long gone.

nothing can make it right again.
all i ever wanted was someone to truly love me,and only me.
isit really too much im asking for?

someone cheer me up. i just carn stop crying.

2009-04-22T02:36:00.000+08:00

its so saddening to go school everyday ,friendless ):

&i donte freaking uds why that freaking new class mate just have to rub it in by telling his friend he feels awkward to have me sitting beside him.
what th fuck is awkward when im sitting in th corner of th class with a whole class of strangers ,people who i ve never even took a look at before & he thinks that he feels awkward.

sigh. but im good, kinda got used to th type of weird look people give me.
&im gald there is still familiar faces in some class.
ohwell, just fucking wish i can graduate soon.

then there's this sudden concern from my dearest brother about who im out with lately.
its just so sick. i carn freaking understand why th fuck does he do that for.
his childish narrowmind just carn freaking widern up .
i think im mature enuff to make my own decision of who im seeing.
im not gonna freaking let him go just becuz of a conflict which probably didnt even took place.
even if it did, people changed. &its all in th past, you carn expect me to judge a person when you carn even fuly tell me everything.
you donte tell people ,hey ,that guy is bad stop hanging out with him &expect people to take whatever you said & cloud their judgement.

im just so tired.
i donte know what to think ,what to do anymore.
i tried explaining &nothing goes into your stubborn brain.

i really tried.

im sorry.

2009-04-13T09:31:00.000+08:00

K♥

i really carn get to sleep now. was working till 6 am just now, and ♥ came down to bugis and we had mac breakfast before he head for work and me ,home.
was about to fall asleep until ahma woke me up to drink soup-.-

anyway school is starting this coming monday,&i do realize that im retaking netfund.
&bloody hell th first fucking lesson for this sem. boring shit.
args. & i went to love's timetable &they get effing fri off ): &i ve got lab shit every single day -i have to wear covered ):

alrights,shall go and sleep now.

nights world.

2009-04-08T05:50:00.000+08:00

Rich Girl - Gwen Stefani & Eve

Both ♥ and i have this song stuck inside our head thanks to confession of a shopaholic
am thinking of changing current blogsong to this cuz nobody is getting wayy popular. haa

taa

2009-04-06T05:45:00.000+08:00

i was playing Texas poker on facebook ever since i got home from work.
&im so glad its fake money im playing with - completely no luck at games :(
was talking t daryl online, & haa, i tot i was pathetic, he only have 500 bucks. :P

:) im off tmr thanks much to qihui for helping.
meeting ♥ tmr :)

turning in now.
nights all.

2009-04-05T17:02:00.000+08:00

no one's probably gona be reading. but anyhow, im still alive and kicking, thou somewhat drained by work. ):

my remaining holiday will be spent working :( with only Thursdays off.
im still happy besides th fact that i look like shit now every single day.

haha.

anyway,

Happy belated birthday minny. :)
donte know whether you will read this. but,i hope you are doing fine yea!

ps: desktop is not working ,still :(

2009-03-26T15:53:00.000+08:00

i was blog hopping& i read something.. i forget the exact lines, but it was something like,letting go is harder than holding on.becus, the whole point of holding on is for fear of whats gonna happen when you let go.

becuz by letting go of someone ,you ve chosen to give up your rights of loving&caring for him,so you choose to hold on, believing that one day your love and care for him might be reciprocated.

letting go is a tormenting process of missing him,& wishing that everytime your phone rings it could be a text from him.
but by letting go,your letting yourself open to other choices.

so contradicting.

owell, goodbye.

2009-03-22T21:50:00.000+08:00

finally home early for once.

As i had already said i had a busy week, & even if i do have time to go online,i only check my facebook before i hit the sack & the next thing i know, it was already late afternoon.

&as im typing this i already feel my mattress calling. hee

yb &jovial made me very angry yesterday after work so yb had to go home alone after jovial sent us to my home:P
work was tiring and boring. th same ole routine too lame to share.
th same old ah tiong that never fail to irritate me to the max during work just doesnt make working anymore interesting.just that i have been losing my temper towards them nowadays.

anyway, old eyecandy is back:) tuesday he came ,i hope this wonte be th last i will see him until next year again . :P

args, my life is so boring.

teach me d0ta anyone?
L4d is getting boring..hahaha.. but i still love L4d sessions with th burdens. :P
&legend of chunli is good.. i was damn excied to see edmund chen on th big screen in a more ang moh show.

no updates for today, cuz im keeping it for next. haa

taa

2009-03-21T09:44:00.000+08:00

have to admit, never good with words.
sorry is an understatement for it has been used for too many times.

really aint got any idea,how am i going to go through this.
but,i swear,never am i gonna hurt anyone like this again.

donte worry,its gonna be as if i never existed..

__________________________________________________________________

pls,do me a favor nd do not ask, i haven been going on about it, and no one gets me at all.
so spare me with all your questions already.

work was effing tiring, &my 200$$ pay is left with only 50.
soo not gonna live thru next week ):
something ive been anticipating for is like tmr.
&i feel like, so not ready for it. this whole week have been pretty much hectic &messy.

goodbye

why act as if you care?

2009-03-16T12:22:00.000+08:00

met her ytd at town, walked around. then Akie and friend bought us to cine to slack.-.-
heh.lucky her "curfew" got me home early as well :P lols.

things to do by end of today,

meet ym and co to get their certs at Bhss :)
go down bugis &collect pay at 7pm sharp!
trim eyebrow,
buy contact lens.

alright going off, bye!

2009-03-15T16:52:00.000+08:00

you don't conveniently forget things.
you just didn't have the heart to remember them.

2009-03-15T09:06:00.000+08:00

its 9AM sunday &im home from work.
today is payday! but i bet paycheck is gonna be damn low cuz i only work 4 days that month):
anyway, i went to play L4D after work today with parttime ,it was his first time. & im already quite sick of it, but still, fun.

&im still damn awake now.
im going jogging before heading to sleep.

goodday!

2009-03-12T12:55:00.000+08:00

went t phuture last night.

i lost my belt& my tongue stud.):
will be back with photos.

Am gonna meet baby and co for movie,L4d & bkt! :) yayyyyy!!!!!

2009-03-12T12:24:00.000+08:00

Student	:	0805376A HU ZHENYAN MAGDELENE
Academic Year	:	2008/2009, October Semester
Course	:	DIPLOMA IN INFO-COMMUNICATIONS

CODE	SUBJECT	CU	Grade
ECC1002	Networking Fundamentals	4	F
ECC1003	Web Application Project 1	4	C+
EMA1001	Engineering Mathematics 1	5	C
EPL1003	Problem-solving and Process Skills	2	Pass
ESE1005	Computer Programming	4	C+
ETW1001	Telecommunications and Systems	4	D+

Total Credit Units earned to-date	:	29 cu
Cumulative Grade Point Average obtained to-date	:	1.74

Academic Status: PERMITTED TO TAKE THE SUPPLEMENTARY EXAMINATION / ASSESSMENT.

hahaha. i know it isnt good. but im still staying at at tp! :D at least. hehehe.
&i improved k.heh..gonna start studying for netfund soon!

2009-03-11T14:45:00.000+08:00

im sucha idiot i totally forget t register for sms service for my exams result! :(
!!!! argsssss.im so excited now.

bye!

2009-03-08T23:50:00.000+08:00

clock strikes 12, march 9 'o9.

Happy18th Birthday AngelynL! ♥

tot i was gona be first until * beat me.hahaha.
anyway, we have known each other for quite sometime aye.
but there are times i really wish i could have known about you more.

babe. still th same old words for you.
like how you will be here for me,i'll do th same for you.

bestwishes ♥♥

lookalike?

2009-03-08T18:47:00.000+08:00

so i went to work on friday, & a receive a random call from Priscilla( colleague) & she ask if i own a blog shop. &she went on to say i look like a model from scarlet room. &i checked it out just now ..

&i was shocked! its damn weird to be staring at someone who look like you i swear!

&thats me on top. i think its mostly th hair..,th eyes .. i think shes bigger in size :/
but still ,click her picture to enlarge! it shocked me!

anyway, good day!
finally a day off! three days of work was killing me.
it hasnt been so crowded for months on weekends!
think cooking 10 bowl of instant noodles.,&doing all th dishes.):
craziness.

part time pity th customer becuz i showed attitude to every one of them.
even those who didnt do anything to piss me :P

Alright, shall go jog now.
bye.! :D

2009-03-07T14:30:00.000+08:00

Day 3!

very tired from work. no time for excersizing :P but i went to gym alone on thurs! haha.angelyn come back soon to gym with me can!
then i went to meet ym at cityhall, & we spent 10 ++ on arcade! we playd time crisis until we ve muscle aches th following day. :P

& i have been aching everywhere. hahaha.

&day 2 was ytd, prepared for work when i woke up.i hate fridays.shortage alot of $$ .
):
&now im going out to meet ym♥ again .heh . no arcades this time!

my ahma haven stop talking yet.

bye!

2009-03-05T04:02:00.001+08:00

i told myself ,move on,where do i go?

2009-03-05T03:35:00.000+08:00

insomnia sucks.

guess i really own part time a mac ): he bet with a mac meal that i wonte go jogging in th morning.
=.= thats kinda encouraging..haha..but if i really go jogging it means th mac will be fore me! oops.

anyway,i only had one meal today! cuz ahma was out th whole day &i was so lazy to cook maggie for myself so i waited for dinner. :D but im dead hungry now.

&its damn sad cuz today was a great wheather day,&i was too lazy to go joggin -.-
alright, tomorrow,day one. heh.

goodnights..

2009-03-04T04:29:00.000+08:00

just came home from work, 4.33am.

alright,started off as a super boring night , cold,quiet, haven been like this for a while..
and when i finally tot i could call it a day and go home,i realize th main door key was missing.

called th boss,no ans ..called th lady boss,no ans..msged morning shift no reply.

&i felt bad for th guard cuz if i donte close he carn go. so i went down and apologized.lols! sucha random thing to do. & never did it came across to me,that th guard actually saved me!
he gave me th most brilliant solution eva!

he told me to unlock th back down(from th outside).. lock th main door (from inside) &exit from th back door &lock up from th outside. brilliant!
i swear it was so smart of him man,he even asked me to use my brain la-.-

i bet no one can come up with this. i mean ,give any staff this situation i bet 10 out of 10 will call until th boss wakes up & ask him to come down to lock up.hahaha.unless boss can come up with that idea!
oops.

anyway people, you can start putting money down ,im so not gona make it after two months.D:
as in you can start betting on im not gonna lose weight after two months.
i carn sleep at night,i carn wake up in th morning. i donte know whats wrong with myself! this sucks!

ps.angelyn if you see this, i'll miss you too.:) pls come bac with good news! heh.
pps. is my siao eh bac already?

2009-03-02T23:26:00.000+08:00

hahaha..hehehe..
thanks for da compliment babe. :D actually i just download codes from blogskins and edit it from there. i carn do skins from scratch for nuts! :P i understand codes thou! hee!

im having acne attack on my face. its terrifying ok, my ah ma got a shock.&myself too!
&ytd i knocked my head on th water tap,bloody hell..tot i was going to die last night..
its still painful wheni touch it lightly ):

anyway, met up with kenneth &peter for L4D today! &i have been playing it since i came home.
hahaha.addict!

i ve got work tomorrow! (:

&i so want to wake up early tmr to go jog.
i declared that after th 2 months i will comfirm lose those fats.now im regretting ):
&everyone is betting against it.

ahahaha.even myself is not confident -.- i ve tried and failed like donte know how many times that im actually starting to believe im destinated to be fat- for life!

its getting lenghty. &boring.

ahaha.goodnights! :D

2009-03-02T03:56:00.000+08:00

finally done!
just need to add in a song.

nice?
comment yea!

gna sleep now! donte want t fly kenneth areoplane again :P

2009-02-28T15:25:00.000+08:00

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blogger is screwed up!

2009-02-27T01:22:00.000+08:00

yeap.
like what i ve mentioned.new blog :) i suck at xanga.

why th url?
idk.guess i ve seen it somewhere and its stuck inside my head.

feeling damn hot in th head.must be lack of sleep.
random decision to powerhouse ytd with angelyn..
met up with baby(sher) towning then movie with angelyn today.
tmorrrow its fri! :) no work. L4D and movie with th usuals.

i love holidays.minus th broke part.

relink if you must! :)

goodnight!